I miss group training a lot. After paying subs for a year through online stuff I never got into and some spells back I didn't want to go to I have finally cancelled my membership today. After so much shielding I just can't see me feeling OK about interacting like this again any time soon. Even once everyone at home is fully vaccinated the mood here is that we need to carry on avoiding people so no group sessions, events, holidays or anything like that. Unless I move away from here on my own like I used to I don't see this changing. So maybe that's the way forward for me but I don't want to get closed out of coming back for the whole Summer which is what's likely to happen if I walk out.
Feel like I'm between a rock and a hard place, trapped, with no way to go in any direction other than to carry on as things have been for the last year for another year. By that stage I think this place will be beyond my walking out on for a few weeks away. Either that or just sell everything up, re-home my mum somewhere she can be independent, break up and go back to living on my own. Been mega depressed today. Everyone else seems to be getting their lives back and I can't see any prospect of me getting any aspects of mine back whatever is actually allowed. The mood may change but for now it's as if nothing is easing for me.