A letter to Adam Spearitt, who died aged 14 at Hillsborough, written by his mum
20 years since the day you left home with your dad. I remember you, full of excitement and anticipation, your first away match saying, 'Dad they're warning people to watch out for pickpockets'. If only that had been the worst thing to have happened.
Did you enjoy the lovely drive over the Pennines in the bright spring sunshine with your dad and his friends laughing and joking all the way?
Were you worried when you saw the crowds at the turnstiles? But then feel OK when your dad said, 'We'll just wait here to the side till it eases off, it won't matter if we miss the start.'
Then were you both surprised when the large exit gate opened and you were all allowed to go through and not even asked for your tickets?
Then delighted to find yourselves right at the front near the goal.
But then the disaster caused by 'The failure of the police to control the crowd'.
Should we have 'moved on' (in other words put it all behind us)? How could we when those to blame didn't have the courage to stand up and own up, but heaped blame on yourselves and the fans who tried so hard to save lives, ferrying the injured the length of the pitch to be given help although only a handful of you were taken to hospital, the same fans who were tarnished with obscene headlines by a certain newspaper.
Some of the police did their best on the day and have our thanks like the special constable who found a faint pulse in you, went with you to hospital and stayed a while with you after you died. As for the others, let's hope we are a constant thorn in their sides.
Some of the anniversary testimonies I've been reading recently are heart-breaking
I think there's never been proper closure - nobody was ever held to account - neither cops nor tabloids ever properly apologised. A city was left to grieve without a proper explanation of how it happened
Way too many people from outside jumped to quick conclusions (in part because of Heysel) which did the fans a terrible disservice and injustice.. and I can see why The Sun is still boycotted to this day.
RIP + props to the campaigners and everyone still fighting for justice.